July 15, 2018

Open your eyes, please.

I was a Catholic for a good 23 years of my life. Went to church every Sunday, completed the necessary sacraments. Let me tell you that not a single thing that I went through, heard & observed ever involved efforts to sabotage Muslims or other believers.

All the sermons, prayers that were uttered were underlined with values of love & compassion. “Respect thy neighbours. Be kind to everyone. May God grant wisdom upon our leaders. May God protect our country. God have mercy on us. Etc.”

I was living in Sabah then. Pretty shielded from the prejudices on non-Muslims that I’ve seen here. So when I moved to KL, I was quite baffled at the level of misunderstanding & prejudices that Muslims have on Christians. I mean, we didn’t sit down in Sunday schools and discuss..

About how to convert a fellow Muslim, or crafting devious plans on how to do so. I don’t remember a single time where there was even a hint of such intention. We were always taught about how to live the Christian values in whatever we do; compassion, kind, respect, honesty, etc.

To be fair, my parents have their own misconception towards Islam.

“It’d break my heart to pieces if your husband marries a 2nd, 3rd wife.”

“They’ll cut off your relationship with your Christian families.”

Among the things they said to me when I wanted to become a Muslim.

Can’t blame them aight. I guess what I’m trying to say is, remove these prejudices towards non-Muslims, stop wasting effort to fuel them. We (Muslims in Msia)have a lot more fundamental things to sort out; child marriage, corruption, yes kawin 4 issue too.


We give people multiple chances
hoping that they'll change
I don't know if it speaks less of them
for taking advantage
Or less of us for refusing
to accept who they are

July 1, 2018

be kind with them

The people who understand you
and the people who are there for you..
a l s o   g e t    t i r e d
a l s o   h a v e    b a d   d a y s.
They also have their own problems and
they also feel the way you feel sometimes.
So please be gentle with them.
Be kind with them.
They're just as soft as you are and
they need you just as much
as you need them

June 25, 2018


لن يسلم أحد من كلام الناس حتى الأنبياء

Tidak ada seorang pun
yang selamat
daripada kata-kata buruk manusia
sekalipun para Nabi.

June 4, 2018

Too much

Sometimes she'll push away
what she wants
because she wants it
too much.
And too much scares
the hell out of her.
Because sometimes
people lose themselves
in wanting too much. 

June 3, 2018


don't try to find
someone who brings
you happiness,
because that can be
instead, wait for
the one who brings
you peace. and that
is far more rare.
finding home in another

May 26, 2018


I don't have an explanation
as to how you pull me in,
you just do.
You've always had a gravity
that I've never been able
to overcome.

January 27, 2018

Save yourself

Don't fall in love with me
I am not easy to love and
I know it might be a bad thing because
I know I demand so much.
I'm not the softest person and
I have a whole goddamn list of
things I require and
none of them come easy.
Most of them are hard.
Most of them aren't for the faint hearted.
I have standards because
I know what I want,
what I deserve and
I know what I have to offer.

I'm a cloudy day,
the soft rain above the sea,
the last breath from a warm good-bye.
I'm all sadness combined
in one person.
All tears that fall from tired eyes and
all things that wrap around a broken heart.
What I am trying to say is,
I'm not perfect and
I don't expect you to be either
but I know my worth.

And I love with all tenderness,
carelessness and
with everything I do not know
about myself.
I just want something real.
Someone who isn't afraid of what
goes on within, and
I demand nothing less than that.
I know who I am.
That's all.

January 5, 2018

You have been warned

There are parts to me that don't
exist anymore,
parts to me i left behind years ago,
parts to me i left moments ago.

I'm constantly shedding, and
constantly growing new skin,
because i'm trying to evolve past the things
that don't stimulate me anymore,
past the things that don't speak to me anymore,
past the things that don't fill me anymore.

And, if i left you behind
during my process,
understand that it wasn't out of malice,
it wasn't out of selfishness,
it wasn't out of egotism,
it was out of self love.

And, i hope even you
can appreciate that. 

December 30, 2017

No words left

It's not that I
don't have anything
to say, to the
contrary, I have so

It's just that
you've shown me
you don't deserve
to hear it.