Blockout

I did have feelings for you. It was just. I was going through so much shit. I had to fix myself before I could have been with anyone else. Love myself before I could have given my love to someone else. Heal myself. Be with myself. Be kind to myself. And it was nothing personal. I had to do it for me. And that was it. That's why it never work out. Why things fell apart.

Sometimes you just have to blockout everyone to fix the broken inside of you. Sometimes it's not about anyone else but you. And sometimes you just have to give yourself all the attention you need. Before giving it to someone else.

Someone who gets it

Sometime that's all
you need. Someone who 
gets it. 
A little light in the
darkness.
Some empathy in a cold 
world. 
A little understanding 
of the chaos inside.

A little more

My favourite part
is where you
walked into my
life. you didn't
know me, yet
something told
you to walk
a little more.

Luas

Berurusan dengan manusia
membuatkan kita belajar untuk punya
hati yang luas.

Mendewasa, ianya bukan lagi tentang
siapa betul dan siapa salah.
Tidak juga menjadi naif.

Tetapi lebih matang untuk kita pilih
perlawanan yang manakah harus kita
menangi sebenar-benarnya.

Something in the middle

I don't want to fight
you, nor surrender.
I want something
beautifully in the
middle where there is
flow.
A place where we
balance each other,
compliment each other
and we become stronger,
together. 

July 19

You gave me the letter
I guess it was July
You said we'll be better

But I don't know why
I should be so lonely
When I closed my eyes
Imagined you're mine

Sometimes I feel tired
Of my heavy thoughts
Like starting a fire

When we're on the boat
And I'm on my own now
Just wasting my nights
Without you behind

And now it is better
Like you used to say
I found this old letter

With a heart round my name
I see it's so clearly
That you won't believe
I just wanna stay here
With you, my Liv

By Aspen Grove - July 19

Thinking of you

Sometimes I think of
you and where you
might be.
I hope you're
happy.
I hope you're
well.
And above all,
I hope you feel
free. 

APAKAH KAU SESETIA MENTARI?

Apakah kau sesetia mentari
Atau serapuh embun di hujung pagi?

Mentari sentiasa menepati janjinya
untuk tenggelam dan terbit lagi...

Tidak seperti awan gemawan berubah...
hanya untuk kelihatan indah.

Dari jauh aku hanya mendoakan
Mendamba seteguh kesetiaan.

Merenung mentari tenggelam senja ini
seperti merenung harapan sendiri.

InsyaAllah, esok, lusa dan selamanya...
mentari itu kan terbit lagi!

Aamiin.

In my head

Her hand
was the hardest to hold,
for she found love
in herself -
which raised the stakes
for everyone else

Buta

Tuhan..
Segalanya telah Engkau tentukan
Terangi saja hatiku
Maaf ku selalu terlupa
Mensyukuri semuanya

Tuhan..
Segalanya telah Engkau berikan
Tetapkan saja hatiku
Maaf ku selalu terlupa
Mensyukuri semuanya

Maafkan aku..
Selalu terlupa
Mensyukuri semuanya

resolutions

i want to be in love.
with books that steal my words
and leave me still.
with music that pierce my skin
and shakes my bones.
i want to be in love with dust that dance
along the sun's rays in the afternoon,
the lonely cars that rumble
by my window at night.
i want to be in love with food
that fills my soul,
faces that grow smiles in my chest.
and places that stain my wandering eyes.
i want to be in love.
i want to be in love.
i want to be in love - with life,
myself and everything.
everything. everything. everything.

Standing still

How Far I'll Go

I've been staring at the edge of the water
'Long as I can remember, never really knowing why
I wish I could be the perfect daughter
But I come back to the water, no matter how hard I try
Every turn I take, every trail I track
Every path I make, every road leads back
To the place I know, where I can not go, where I long to be

See the line where the sky meets the sea? It calls me
And no one knows, how far it goes
If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me
One day I'll know, if I go there's just no telling how far I'll go

I know everybody on this island, seems so happy on this island
Everything is by design
I know everybody on this island has a role on this island
So maybe I can roll with mine
I can lead with pride, I can make us strong
I'll be satisfied if I play along
But the voice inside sings a different song
What is wrong with me?

See the light as it shines on the sea? It's blinding
But no one knows, how deep it goes
And it seems like it's calling out to me, so come find me
And let me know, what's beyond that line, will I cross that line?

The line where the sky meets the sea? It calls me
And no one knows, how far it goes
If the wind in my sail on the sea stays behind me
One day I'll know, how far I'll go

Songwriters: Lin-Manuel Miranda

Candle In The Wind

And it seems to me you lived your life
Like a candle in the wind
Never knowing who to cling to
When the rain set in

The Dreamer - The Tallest Man On Earth

Oh sometimes the blues is just a passing bird
And why can't that always be
Tossing aside from your birches crown
Just enough dark to see
How you're the light over me

Beauty in the tragedy

To the bones

She doesn't fall 
in love often,
but when she does
it is down into
the bones. 

Ubat Hati

1. Baca Quran & fahamkan maksudnya.
2. Dirikan solat malam (tahajud).
3. Berkumpul dengan orang soleh/solehah.
4. Perbanyakkan puasa.
5. Perbanyakkan zikir malam. 

Huff

Duduklah sebentar
jika lelah

dan sesekali tengoklah
ke belakang

seberapa jauh kita
sudah melangkah. 

Self-esteem

Sometimes it takes a little bit of time
to find our place with Allah.

I think one of the thing, to begin with,
is to built self-esteem; to know who I am
and what I want out of life and 
extends past this life. There's more to it
than just 60, 70, 80 years.

Vincent (Starry Starry Night)

Alhamdulillah

Sujudku pun takkan 
memuaskan inginku
'Tuk hanturkan 
sembah sedalam kalbu.

Adapun kusembahkan 
syukur padamu ya Allah
untuk nama, harta dan keluarga
yang mencinta.
Dan perjalanan yang sejauh ini 
tertempa.

Alhamdulillah pilihan dan kesempatan
yang membuat hamba 
mengerti lebih baik makna diri
semua lebih bererti 
akan mudah dihayati.

Alhamdulillah..
Alhamdulillah..
Alhamdulillah..

Dear God

Miles away from those I love purpose undefined

Open your eyes, please.

I was a Catholic for a good 23 years of my life. Went to church every Sunday, completed the necessary sacraments. Let me tell you that not a single thing that I went through, heard & observed ever involved efforts to sabotage Muslims or other believers.

All the sermons, prayers that were uttered were underlined with values of love & compassion. “Respect thy neighbours. Be kind to everyone. May God grant wisdom upon our leaders. May God protect our country. God have mercy on us. Etc.”

I was living in Sabah then. Pretty shielded from the prejudices on non-Muslims that I’ve seen here. So when I moved to KL, I was quite baffled at the level of misunderstanding & prejudices that Muslims have on Christians. I mean, we didn’t sit down in Sunday schools and discuss..

About how to convert a fellow Muslim, or crafting devious plans on how to do so. I don’t remember a single time where there was even a hint of such intention. We were always taught about how to live the Christian values in whatever we do; compassion, kind, respect, honesty, etc.

To be fair, my parents have their own misconception towards Islam.

“It’d break my heart to pieces if your husband marries a 2nd, 3rd wife.”

“They’ll cut off your relationship with your Christian families.”

Among the things they said to me when I wanted to become a Muslim.

Can’t blame them aight. I guess what I’m trying to say is, remove these prejudices towards non-Muslims, stop wasting effort to fuel them. We (Muslims in Msia)have a lot more fundamental things to sort out; child marriage, corruption, yes kawin 4 issue too.

Gamble

We give people multiple chances
hoping that they'll change
I don't know if it speaks less of them
for taking advantage
Or less of us for refusing
to accept who they are

be kind with them

The people who understand you
and the people who are there for you..
a l s o   g e t    t i r e d
a l s o   h a v e    b a d   d a y s.
They also have their own problems and
they also feel the way you feel sometimes.
So please be gentle with them.
Be kind with them.
They're just as soft as you are and
they need you just as much
as you need them. 

Begitulah

لن يسلم أحد من كلام الناس حتى الأنبياء

Tidak ada seorang pun
yang selamat
daripada kata-kata buruk manusia
sekalipun para Nabi.

Too much

Sometimes she'll push away
what she wants
because she wants it
too much.
And too much scares
the hell out of her.
Because sometimes
people lose themselves
in wanting too much. 

Home

don't try to find
someone who brings
you happiness,
because that can be
volatile.
instead, wait for
the one who brings
you peace. and that
is far more rare.
finding home in another
doesn't
happen
every
day.

Gravity

I don't have an explanation
as to how you pull me in,
you just do.
You've always had a gravity
that I've never been able
to overcome.

Save yourself

Don't fall in love with me
I am not easy to love and
I know it might be a bad thing because
I know I demand so much.
I'm not the softest person and
I have a whole goddamn list of
things I require and
none of them come easy.
Most of them are hard.
Most of them aren't for the faint hearted.
I have standards because
I know what I want,
what I deserve and
I know what I have to offer.

I'm a cloudy day,
the soft rain above the sea,
the last breath from a warm good-bye.
I'm all sadness combined
in one person.
All tears that fall from tired eyes and
all things that wrap around a broken heart.
What I am trying to say is,
I'm not perfect and
I don't expect you to be either
but I know my worth.

And I love with all tenderness,
carelessness and
with everything I do not know
about myself.
I just want something real.
Someone who isn't afraid of what
goes on within, and
I demand nothing less than that.
I know who I am.
That's all.

You have been warned

There are parts to me that don't
exist anymore,
parts to me i left behind years ago,
parts to me i left moments ago.

I'm constantly shedding, and
constantly growing new skin,
because i'm trying to evolve past the things
that don't stimulate me anymore,
past the things that don't speak to me anymore,
past the things that don't fill me anymore.

And, if i left you behind
during my process,
understand that it wasn't out of malice,
it wasn't out of selfishness,
it wasn't out of egotism,
it was out of self love.

And, i hope even you
can appreciate that. 

No words left

It's not that I
don't have anything
to say, to the
contrary, I have so
much.

It's just that
you've shown me
you don't deserve
to hear it.  

Heroine

She has a moments
of weekness where
she starts to
believe she needs
someone to save her.
But then she smiles
when she remembers
that she is the
heroine in her story.

My way

And now, the end is near; 

And so I face the final curtain.

My friend, I'll say it clear, 

I'll state my case, of which I'm certain.

I've lived a life that's full.

I've traveled each and every highway; 

And more, much more than this, 

I did it my way.

Regrets, I've had a few; 

But then again, too few to mention.

I did what I had to do

And saw it through without exemption.

I planned each charted course; 

Each careful step along the byway, 

And more, much more than this, 

I did it my way.

Yes, there were times, I'm sure you knew

When I bit off more than I could chew.

But through it all, when there was doubt, 

I ate it up and spit it out.

I faced it all and I stood tall; 

And did it my way.

I've loved, I've laughed and cried.

I've had my fill; my share of losing.

And now, as tears subside, 

I find it all so amusing.

To think I did all that; 

And may I say - not in a shy way, 

"Oh no, oh no not me, 

I did it my way".

For what is a lady, what has she got?

If not herself, then she has naught.

To say the things she truly feels; 

And not the words of one who kneels.

The record shows I took the blows -

And did it my way! 

Yes, it was my way.

She's the man

Let me tell the tale
of a girl who didn't stop.
Who climbed up every mountain
without a pause upon the top.
She'd dance until each blade of grass,
was clothed in drops of dew.
And the sun knew her by name
but the silver moon did too.
For a fear had settled in her bones;
a fear of sitting still,
that if you're not moving forward
it must mean you never will.
So in time her dance got slower
and she looked at all she'd seen,
but found gaps inside the places
that she'd never fully been.
For she was a human doing,
human moving, human seeing.
But she'd never taken time
to simply be a human being. 

Sealed

I close my heart
not because
I am afraid of what
you will find.

I close my heart
because I'm afraid
you will not find
anything.
Anything that will
make you wish
to stay.

raw

She wasn't poetry.
She wasn't made of beautiful words
that rolled off the tongue.
Her smile wasn't as bright as the sun
and her eyes weren't made of the fucking stars.
She was none of those things.
She was real.
She was authentic.
She was raw.

She said what was on her mind,
and in her heart.
Sure,
she cried, but she wiped
her red puffy eyes picked up the pieces,
and handled it.

Because she realized a long time ago,
no one would be there for her every time.
She got her heart stomped on,
except her.
She was her own savior.
Her own lover.
And that my friend,
made her more beautiful than any verse
could.

Orang-orang yang muflis

Dari Abu Hurairah meriwayatkan bahawa Rasulullah bersabda ;

"Tahukah kamu siapakah orang-orang yang muflis itu?"

Para sahabat r.hum berkata;

"Pada kami orang yang muflis itu ialah orang-orang yang tidak ada wang ringgit dan keperluan-keperluan dunianya."

Baginda menjawab;

"Pada umatku orang-orang yang muflis ialah orang-orang yang datang pada hari kiamat dengan sembahyang, puasa, zakat dan amalan-amalan makbul yang lain, tetapi dia melakukan perbuatan yang keji terhadap orang lain, memfitnah orang lain, memakan harta orang, menumpahkan darah tanpa hak, memukul orang lain, maka semua keburukan ini akan dibalasi dengan diambil daripada amal kebaikannya dengan kadar kejahatannya. Diambil lagi lagi kebaikannya(dan diberikan pada orang yang dizalimi). Dan sekiranya amal kebaikannya habis, sedangkan banyak lagi keburukan yang belum dibalasinya, maka akan diambil dari keburukan orang yang dizalimi, lalu dipikulkan ke atasnya, kemudian dengannya dia akan dicampakkan ke api neraka."

- HR Muslim

Nyawa

adalah cinta,
yang mengubah jalannya waktu
kerana cinta,
waktu terbahagi dua
dengan mu
dan rindu
untuk membalik masa.

detik tidak pernah melangkah mundur
tapi kertas putih itu selalu ada.

waktu tidak pernah berjalan mundur
dan hari tidak pernah terulang.

tetapi pagi selalu menawarkan cerita yang baru
untuk semua pertanyaan yang belum pernah sempat

terjawab.

simpan pegang seranah caci

aku simpan seranahmu dalam liang telinga
dengan harap yang aku gunungkan dari sebutir zarah hati,
semoga diciptakan Tuhan suatu hari nanti untuk aku
ambilkan semula dan paksa kau jilat kembali.

aku pegang cacianmu dalam salur kerongkong
dengan mimpi yang aku campingkan dari secebis ngilu,
semoga dikenankan Tuhan suatu hari nanti untuk engkau
dapatkan semula dan kunyah setiap satu persatu.

kerana bahasamu yang kau pinjam dari iblis itu,
terlalu indah bunyinya sehinggakan aku mahu sekali
simpankan dan pegangkan sehingga suatu masa
akan kau jilat dan kunyahkan dengan hina.

kerana aku tidak reti untuk mati,
semata-mata untuk lidah yang kau sewa dari neraka.

kerana aku tidak akan mahu mati,
selagi yang benar tidak memberi aku syurga.

Hati

Kembara tidak perlu jauh
asalkan dengan hati.

Hadiah tidak semestinya mahal
asalkan dari hati.

Semua yang dengan dan dari hati
akan menyentuh dan jatuh ke hati.

Dalam hidup apabila kita mendapat sesuatu,
kita akan kehilangan sesuatu yang lain.

Kita tidak akan mendapat segala dan semua
pada waktu yang sama.

Justeru,
pastikan apa yang kita dapat lebih berharga
daripada apa yang kita hilang.

Doa

Tuhanku

Dalam termangu
Aku masih menyebut namaMu
Biar susah sungguh
Mengingat Kau penuh seluruh
cahyaMu panas suci
Tinggal kerlip lilin di kelam sunyi

Tuhanku
Aku hilang bentuk
remuk
Tuhanku
Aku mengembara di negeri asing Tuhanku
Di PintuMu aku mengetuk
Aku tidak bisa berpaling

Chairil Anwar
13 November 1943

I'm lucky

You're lucky, that you were mad.
See, when you're mad you don't miss people
and if you stay mad,
it's like you never knew them at all
that way you don't have to feel sucky about it.
You were lucky.

- Uptown Girls

real smiles

I dream of the nights
when we're together
and she smiles -

not because she has
to convince the world
she's okay.

but because she's
truly happy.

Lost boy

There was a time when I was alone
Nowhere to go and no place to call home
My only friend was the man in the moon
And even sometimes he would go away, too

Then one night, as I closed my eyes
I saw a shadow flying high
He came to me with the sweetest smile
Told me he wanted to talk for awhile
He said, "Peter Pan, that's what they call me
I promise that you'll never be lonely, " and ever since that day

I am a lost boy from Neverland
Usually hanging out with Peter Pan
And when we're bored we play in the woods
Always on the run from Captain Hook
"Run, run, lost boy, " they say to me
Away from all of reality

Neverland is home to lost boys like me
And lost boys like me are free

He sprinkled me in pixie dust and told me to believe
Believe in him and believe in me
Together we will fly away in a cloud of green
To your beautiful destiny
As we soared above the town that never loved me
I realized I finally had a family
Soon enough we reached Neverland
Peacefully my feet hit the sand
And ever since that day

No one is to blame

You can look at the menu, but you just can't eat
You can feel the cushion, but you can't have a seat
You can dip your foot in the pool, but you can't have a swim
You can feel the punishment, but you can't commit the sin

You can build a mansion, but you just can't live in it
You're the fastest runner but you're not allowed to win
Some break the rules, and let you cut the cost
The insecurity is the thing that won't get lost

You can see the summit but you can't reach it
It's the last piece of the puzzle but you just can't make it fit
Doctor says you're cured but you still feel the pain
Aspirations in the clouds but your hopes go down the drain

And you want her, and she wants you
We want everyone

No one ever is to blame

No one ever is to blame

360°

Hari demi hari, kita jumpa pelbagai jenis hamba Allah.
Tentang zahirnya tidak boleh dipertikai sama sekali kerna itu ciptaan Allah.

Tapi Allah kan adil, diberinya kita semua 'hati' yang sama.
Kita yang pilih kita mahu jadi apa?

Hamba Allah; warna-warni semuanya.
Ada yang warna terang kemudiannya malap.
Ada yang malap kemudiannya terang.
Ada malap dan terus malap.
Ada yang terang dan terus terang.
Fungsi lain-lain.

Tapi semuanya tetap memberi manfaat baik walaupun malap.
Malapnya warna yang dia pilih, ertinya kita tidak perlu ikut seperti pilihannya.
Kan itu adalah contoh tidak baik yang ada manfaatnya?
Yakni; tidak perlu ikut.

Namun, yang tetap akan disimpan di dalam hati ialah yang cantik warnanya.
Bertuahlah kita kerna dari hati yang kita punya, kita boleh pilih warna apa yang kita suka.
Warna terang atau malap.

Dan rugilah kita, jika kita pilih warna yang malap.
Hadir ke kehidupan seseorang dengan membawa suram semata.
Padahal, datangnya mungkin hanya sekejap.
Tapi yang akan dikenang nanti bersifat selamanya.

Rugilah.

I choose you

I didn't fall in love with you.
I walked into love with you,
with my eyes wide open,
choosing to take
every step along the way.
I do believe in fate and destiny,
but I also believe
we are only fated
to do the things
that we'd choose anyway.
And I'd choose you;
in a hundred lifetimes,
in a hundred worlds,
in any version of reality,
I'd find you
and I'd choose you.

reality

i gave him a book about a cat
a cat that can chat
he reads you, the cat
like a gin to the tonic
his brown eyes
reflecting his reality

but i'm a cat
and you...
you are the snowflake
winter ends, you're gone

Apakah agama itu ?

Seorang lelaki yang datang kehadapan Rasulullah s.a.w lalu bertanya:

"Ya Rasulullah, apakah agama itu?"

"Akhlak luhur!"

Orang itu datang dari sebelah kanan sambil menanyakan:

"Apakah agama itu, ya Rasulullah?"

Nabi tetap menyatakan, "Akhlak luhur."

Kemudian datang lagi orang itu dari sebelah kiri beliau dan menanyakan: "Apakah agama itu?"

Nabi masih menjawab seperti itu juga.

Sesudah itu dia datang pula dari jurusan belakang Nabi sambil bertanya:

"Ya Rasulullah, apakah agama itu?"

Nabi menoleh kepadanya sambil bersabda:

"Belum jugakah engkau mengerti? Beragama itu ialah agar engkau jangan pemarah!"

References:

1100 Koleksi Emas / Kisah-kisah Benar & Nasihat-Nasihat (Muka surat 166)

DUA BULAN UNTUK MEMILIH AGAMA

NABI MUHAMMAD SAW sedang mengerjakan solat sunnah dua rakaat. Ketika ia sedang sujud, cucunya yang masih kecil, Hasan menaiki punggungnya dan bermain kuda-kudaan di atasnya sambil memukul-mukul tubuhnya seperti memacu kuda biar larinya cepat.

Nabi sudah cukup lama di dalam sujud, tapi memperpanjang sujudnya sambil menunggu cucunya puas bermain kuda-kudaan. Tatkala Hasan baru saja turun dan Nabi hendak bangun dari sujud, Husain adik Hasan tidak mahu kalah dari abangnya. Ia pun segera melompat menduduki punggung Nabi dan bermain kuda-kudaan meniru Hasan. Nabi menunggu dulu hingga Husain turun dari punggungnya, barulah ia duduk tasyahud.

Pada kali yang lain Nabi sedang membaca khutbah Jumaat di mimbar. Kedua cucunya yang ikut solat di masjid tiba-tiba menangis. Nabi turun dari mimbar di tengah-tengah khutbahnya, mendatangi Hasan dan Husain, dan memujuk mereka supaya diam melalui isyarat dan sikap kasih sayangnya.

Sesudah kedua cucu kecil itu tenang kembali. barulah Nabi naik lagi ke mimbar dan melanjutkan khutbahnya sampai selesai. Ia selalu membaca khutbah lebih pendek dibandingkan dengan sembahyangnya.

Pada hari yang lain Nabi berjumpa dengan seorang Badwi gunung.  Orang A'rabi hitam itu mengaku sudah memeluk agama Islam dan sudah mengerjakan ibadah. 

Nabi bertanya, "Jadi engkau beriman bahawa tidak ada Tuhan selain Allah?"

"Saya percaya," jawab Badwi.

"Kamu tahu, di manakah tempat tinggal Allah," tanya Nabi menguji.

"Tahu," sahut Badwi tegas.

"Di mana?"

"Di sana, di puncak gunung," ujar Badwi tanpa ragu-ragu.

Nabi diam dan menghormati orang Badwi itu baik-baik, tanpa menyanggah sepatah pun ucapannya tadi. Sebab, menurut hemat Nabi, baru sebatas itulah tingkat kemampuan akal Badwi kampung tersebut.

Manakala Makkah sudah ditakluki dan orang-orang Quraisy ketakutan, Nabi beserta sepuluh ribu sahabatnya memasuki kota suci itu dengan damai; orang-orang musyrik tidak ada yang berani menampakkan hidung. Di antara yang paling terpukul adalah keluarga Abu Sufyan, selaku pemimpin besar kaum kafir dan bangsawan yang terhormat. Ia biasa disanjung dan diagung-agungkan sebagai pahlawan yang gagah berani. Hari itu hancurlah semua nama besarnya, bila ia harus takluk sebagai pecundang.

Untung, Nabi cepat tanggap dan bijaksana. Ia segera mengeluarkan pengumuman itu antara lain:

"Barangsiapa masuk ke dalam Masjidil Haram, dia akan dilindungi. Barangsiapa masuk ke dalam rumah Abu Sufyan, dia akan dilindungi."

Betapa bangganya Abu Sufyan mendengar pengumuman. Bererti rumahnya bagaikan disamakan kedudukannya dengan Masjidil Haram. Oleh sebab itu ia tidak kehilangan muka tatkala kemudian memeluk agama Islam. Apalagi anaknya, yang juga akhirnya masuk Islam, Muawiyah bin abu sufyan, beberapa waktu setelah itu diangkat menjadi salah seorang pencatat wahyu oleh Nabi SAW. 

Sejak saat itu orang-orang musyrik berduyun-duyun menyatakan keislaman mereka. Tetapi ada seorang panglima Quraisy yang hingga beberapa lama tidak mahu menjadi muslim. Ketika ditanya oleh Nabi, orang itu, Sofwan bin Umayyah, berkata, "Berilah saya waktu seminggu untuk berfikir, apakah mahu masuk Islam atau tidak."

Nabi menjawab, "Jangan seminggu."

Sofwan terkejut, "Apakah seminggu terlalu lama?"

"Tidak," sabda Nabi, "Terlalu singkat. Ku beri engkau waktu selama dua bulan, apakah akan bersyahadat atau tidak. Fikirkanlah dengan leluasa dan luas. Sebab agama Islam adalah agama bagi orang-orang yang berakal dan menggunakannya untuk berfikir. Tidak ada agama bagi orang yang tidak memiliki akal. 

"Barangsiapa menunjukkan orang supaya berbuat baik, maka orang itu beroleh pahala sama seperti pahala orang yang mengerjakannya."

(HR Muslim)

References:
 1100 Koleksi Emas / Kisah-kisah Benar & Nasihat-Nasihat (Muka surat 268)
 

Hebatnya Air

Dahaga.. Cari air..
Mandi.. Cari air..
Masak.. Cari air..

Kenapa tidak kita contohi air?
Dicincang tiada putus.
Dibakar tiada hangus.
Di mana duduk ikut acuan.
Mengalir ikut arus.

Ikut hukum Allah.
Ikut aliran.
Tiada mudik ke hulu.
Tiada terbang ke langit.

Belajar dari air.
Taat pada hukum Allah.
Nampak lemah.
Nampak cair.

Api marak.. airlah pemadam.
Pokok layu.. air disiram.

Berlembutlah seperti air.
Berjuanglah seperti air.
Lembut belum tentu kalah.

Lihatlah air..
Setitik demi setitik menimpa batu,
Akhirnya berlubang jua si batu...
Biar hati seperti air.
Biar sejuk biar tenang.
Tampak lembut, tampak cair.
Kemenangan tetap milik air...

Jangan seperti batu.
Keras dan kaku.
Terhempas pecah berderai.
Pecah bersepai... berjuanglah seperti air..
Dicincang tiada putus.
Dibakar tiada hangus.

No straight road to take me home tonight

So.

What is it that you really want?
What is it that makes you happy?

For the longest time ever, I was trying to remember what was my childhood dream. You know the kind of answers you would give during your early years in school when the teacher posed you that classic question: what would you like to be when you grow up?

Honestly, I can't remember what I could have possibly said. Could I have said a rock star maybe? Or I wish to travel the world? Or could it be something banally boring such as an accountant, lawyer or doctor. 

But perhaps it doesn't really matter what your childhood dream was. You grow up, gone through some puddle of mud, be a bit wiser and now perhaps your perspectives have changed. And maybe that's what matters. What is it that you really want to do now? Especially when you have more or less everything that you need to enable that change except maybe what is stopping you is the lack of gut or in a more friendly term, fear.

But life has taught me a thing or two about courage. Maybe if you wish for something bad enough, and if you're honest about it, life will eventually give it to you.

Yang Terdalam

Terbanglah jauh-jauh
Melayang setinggi langit
Moga berlabuhlah segala duka
Penawar segala sakit

Gapailah awan gemawan 
Gegarkan dentum guruh dan kilat
Nanti akan turunlah hujan
Menyimbah sejuta rahmat

Alam sedang berbisik
Agar hati yang alpa segera kembali

Usah menyimpan harapan lagi
Tiada lagi yang sejati di sini
 

Thank God It's February

"Love never dies a natural death.

It dies because we don't know how to replenish it's source.
It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals.
It dies of illness and wounds;
it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings."
- Anais Nin

N asked me whether I would be the same person today if I ended up in the city at 5 years ago instead of the House of 17. I don't know, 17 is on its own league, it's tough to compare. But, I wouldn't want to wish otherwise. I did stupid things, took the wrong turning, maybe. But perhaps it was all necessary. For us to finally understand this.

I have now and future. And I have a say in it. And I want to do the right thing. And do things right. I still have my fear, but even if I failed for what I have been decided for, nothing beats the hell of not trying at all!

Temporary Home

This is my temporary home
It's not where I belong
Windows and rooms that I'm passin' through
This is just a stop, on the way to where I'm going
I'm not afraid because I know this is my
Temporary Home.

You hold the other line

You hold the other line
It was dawn.
And you fought for this in your own course
And here you are now
Beautiful air.
What should you do?

You fight, again, to make this work.
You fight, because you know it's worth continue fighting for.

Are you scared?
Hell yeah.
But that's part of it all, right.

Maybe it's time
To draw back the curtains
Because
I see you
I see light

(Sedikit melodramatic hari ini, saya minta maaf)

Everything Will Be Fine

You know sometimes you go through life, you don't realized that it's crooked. You thought life was normal, and there was nothing seriously wrong with it. Until something happened or someone came along and knocked you out cold of your comfort zone.

And then, wa-lah! Suddenly the air becomes clearer and the light seems brighter. And you noticed, how crooked life was and you wonder how on earth that you went along not noticing the flaws. Or even if you did notice, how was it possible that you crossed the line and let yourself be drifted away for so long?

But then again, I guess that's part of how the universe tries to teach you one thing or two about life. Because human being human, we are naturally narcissistic and wimpish. Too scared of the consequential, or just scared of being decisive. Some went along the conventional, safe way and probably spent most of their life not knowing how greener the grass is on the other side. But some ventured into road less traveled and came out with exceptional stories.

In the end I suppose, it is something very subjective, what is right for me, might not be right for you; and what is best for me, might not be the best for you. But you know you've found something extraordinary, when the winning stories are mutually savoured upon.

I will Always Love You

If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I'll go but I know
I'll think of you every step of the way

And I will always love you
Will always love you
You
My darling, you

Bittersweet memories
That is all I'm taking with me
So good-bye
Please don't cry
We both know I'm not what you, you need

And I will always love you
I will always love you
You

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But above all this I wish you love



I Will Always Love You, Whitney Houston (she passed away on my birthday)

through thick and thin

They didn't agree on much. 

In fact, they rarely agreed on everything. 

They fought all the time and they challenge each other everyday. 

But despite their differences, 

they had one important thing in common,

they were crazy about each other.

:') 

Love Notes

Stale confessions
" I never loved you,
but I almost did "
The games people play
Making something out of nothing
Making
nothing
out of
something
and before I closed the door 
It played in my head again,
" I never loved you,
but I almost did "